I have not posted in almost 3 years. But it is time to post again.

If I am to succeed in this thing called life, I need to be taken more seriously. I need to make more of an effort to make myself healthy. Today is the beginning of that journey.

Today's weight, 215 lbs. Height 5'6".

Today I woke up without an alarm at 5:45am. Got into the shower and thought that I will be able to do this. Cried to myself for a good minute.

Then I went downstairs and made a smoothie and thought, I can do this. I can go without eating that much animal and feel healthier. I can do this!

After work today, I join the gym I have been eyeing for the past 2 years and I go work out. I need to do this for me. I am not sure if anyone out there is reading this, but I think it will help me be accountable for my actions if I put it out there. Let whoever wants to read this be the person who knows that I can make my life manageable. I can feel like a real human being again.